My thoughts, fragmented

227: New Phase

2012-02-01T20:36:00.002+11:00

Assalamualaikum wbt..Alhamdulillahirabbil alameen ...Nampaknya first post untuk 2012 ni dah tertangguh hingga sudah masuk Februari! Heee, sedang mencari mood untuk update. Sangat banyak yang ingin dikongsi. Boleh dikatakan bulan lepas adalah bulan air mata. Hihi. Tapi saya okay.Awal tahun 2012 juga menandakan perubahan pelbagai fasa dalam hidup saya. Alhamdulillah, setelah habis KPLI Disember

226: 7 Months

2011-12-28T13:11:00.001+11:00

Semalam 7 bulan! :)Saya sekarang di Melaka. Meh la melawat.Tunggu posting and jadi suri rumah mithali. Huhu.

225: Beautiful

2011-10-27T23:41:00.005+11:00

You know what I suddenly miss?Proving an equation. Third year Electrodynamics. I'm not sure whether I can still remember how, though. Nearly two years since I left it without any revision.But I sure remember the satisfying and wonderful feeling you get when you finally arrive at the last line of the loooong proof (can be few pages long mind you~) successfully without error or careless mistake ..

224:

2011-10-21T12:06:00.003+11:00

AlhamdulillahI turned 24 few days ago on 19th October. Wah, it sounds so grown up. I still feel like I stop growing when I was 17. Maturity wise, at least. Hoho. I'm an adult now. Dealing with the real world. I'm married and all. Haha. But since I'm still a student, I'm not really there yet. I know that. There are so many things that I just can't wait for. To settle down with my husband, to have

223: So, this is goodbye then

2011-09-15T13:28:00.006+10:00

Alhamdulillah...Like what people always say.. "Everything will be okay in the end, if it's not okay, it's not the end"So today is my last day here in SMK Tmn Bukit Indah. At last the practicum is coming to an end. And Alhamdulillah everything's done and classes in maktab will resume next week. No more stressful observation and critics. No more looooooong rph.I had my last class with 4A (Physics)

222:

2011-09-06T18:52:00.002+10:00

First syawal @ Parit Usop, Muar with my new family-in-lawSecond syawal at Parit Setongkat, Muar with my big familyFourth syawal with married siblings at home sweet home in Johor BahruMay Allah bless us till the end of time ...

221:

2011-07-28T18:26:00.003+10:00

Posted untuk pengajaran, terutama kpd yg sudah berkahwin, siapa yg rasa tak sanggup nak baca mushy2 stuff, takyah bacalah ye, spare urself from kutuking me. ;)----Semalam genap 2 bulan kami bergelar suami isteri. Tak perasan sebenarnya, yelah, masing-masing di tengah-tengah kesibukan praktikum, kursus etc2. I wasn't (am not) very stable these past few days, mainly due to two main things:

220: RPH

2011-07-13T21:47:00.003+10:00

My teaching practicum started last week. Last week was it?? why does it feel like aeon already! Oh well... I've been given 2 classes to teach. 4 periods of Physics and 5 periods of Mathematics.... teaching is tiring. At the end of every class that I taught, I found myself sweating profusely. Penatnye menjerit-jerit. Apetah lagi kalau kelas yang belakang-belakang sikit. Bape kali pusing suruh copy

219:

2011-06-30T02:25:00.003+10:00

Lepas kahwin, agak awkward juga nak update ... conscious. Huhu. Semoga Allah membantu diri menjernihkan niat dan menjaga diri di alam tanpa batasan ini (this internet, i mean... and its fitnah yang sangat unpredictable)... lagi-lagi sekarang sedang dalam fasa tidak berapa stabil, praktikum mengajar nak mula dah (takut! and stress sbb byk submission tak finalized lagi.. pdhl semuanya harus

218: :)

2011-06-20T03:40:00.004+10:00

Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal wa kulli ni'mah ...May Allah bless us and our marriage til the meeting with Him in Jannah ...--Back to where I start. The same room, the single me and the 'ol maktab routine. Huhu. I miss you abang.--Lots to be shared. Do'a moga ada kesempatan masa dan ilham idea dari Allah ...

217: Counting days

2011-05-25T03:04:00.004+10:00

What I am feeling right now, sangat lain dengan my expectation sejak dulu kala. I'm getting married in just few days time, insyaAllah... but apa yang dirasakan eh? Seriously I am not sure. People've been asking me.. "Mesti berdebar-debarkan?" and I usually answer with "Not yet".Maybe it's because of the working load right now. The semester is ending, hence there are mountains of submissions need

216:

2011-05-22T22:20:00.003+10:00

Knowing that a person like Ustazah Yoyoh Yusroh existed, made me feel worthless. I always feel like complaining. All the times. About everything. Nothing is right, no one really understand, no task is easy, no time for anything...And now I feel invalid. I have no right to complain. Takde alasan untuk tak buat all these, you know, Muna... Takde alasan nak kata tak mampu. Takde alasan nak kata

215:

2011-05-18T00:49:00.002+10:00

I need a pair of ears. Willing and non-judgemental ears.I need to let out all of these chaos inside. I need to be listened to as I talk and talk.I need a pair of eyes. To which I allow myself to be seen as weak. I need to be watched over as I cry and cry... and be hugged. And be calmed. ---Oh Allah how I miss you ...I need to be listened to, I need to be watched over ...I need YOU.... and I know

214:

2011-05-17T22:29:00.002+10:00

Allahumma bariklana, wabarik alaina ..Allahumma yasirlana wa la tuassir Ya Kareem ...Ya Razzaq ...Ya Wasi' ...Ya Ghaniy ...--Allahumma firghlana ...Astarghfirullah ..Astarghfirullah ..Astarghfirullah ..--Allahumma yasirlana ...Allahumma bariklana ...Allahumma irhamna ...

213: Two One Three

2011-05-07T15:17:00.005+10:00

In less than 3 weeks time, my life will change forever. Haha, I'm just being dramatic. Our life is constantly changing forever, right? The next moment will never be the same, ever again. The only constant in life is change.Anyway, I'm currently 'cuak'ing. 4 months passed by so quickly. Yes, I've been engaged for 4 months. Takpelah, orang kata bertunang jangan lama-lama. Sememangnya selama tempoh

212:

2011-04-30T23:19:00.003+10:00

I usually get frustrated with myself when I failed to convey what I really feel and mean to express, to people. Well... it's a learning process. I know. The more I talk, the more I will learn. I won't automatically acquire this skill... talking my heart out. I am frustrated with myself right now because I am supposed to focus on doing an essay that need to be submitted tomorrow morning.But

211:

2011-04-24T08:57:00.004+10:00

I miss writing. I miss being the me who were so sensitive to her surrounding. Taking in everything as something that actually teaches. And I actually learnt. People say, "Welcome to the real world.". Where the hectic life consumes you. You cannot even think. If from the start you did not do something, keep on dreaming on at last doing it in the future. Keep on hoping and dreaming for "Nanti bila

210:

2011-04-07T02:36:00.002+10:00

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209:

2011-03-30T12:36:00.003+11:00

Do you know what I noticed yesterday?Malaysians in general walk sooooooo slowly.Hmm, kalau dah berjalan bertiga-tigaan atau berlima-limaan tu, atau sorang pun tapi pavement kecik, jalanlah dengan pantas, atau berilah laluan... atau, pantas la sikit.. huhu.Banyak masa habis jalan slow-slow aje. Banyak perkara nak dicapai sayang oi~~Ni sangat evident la kalau tengok pelajar sekolah ni, terutamanya

208:

2011-03-29T14:17:00.004+11:00

Macam perang tabuk.Seruan jihad untuk semua, melawan tentera Rom yang ribuan lebih ramai. Tempat yang jauh, empayar yang hebat, menakutkan dan tak terbayangkan...Ianya adalah satu ujian penapisan. Peperangan itu tidak terjadi pun akhirnya... ujiannya bukanlah peperangan itu sendiri.. tetapi awalnya, ingin melihat siapa yang benar-benar mengotakan imannya.Penyucian niat dan azam.Walau pada

207: Cikgu Maimunah

2011-03-23T01:04:00.002+11:00

:) Nametag I magnet, u ~~ thank u to abang ipar.. smg diluaskan rezeki tambah2 baru dpt baby baru :)Assalamualaikum warahmatullah wabarakatuh.. :) kaifa halukum? Ana bikhayr Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Lama tak letak gambar kan? sebab sejak balik dari OZ last December, I've got too many bags that I used and now I cannot remember where I put my lovely pink camera. Bukan sbb kaye

206:

2011-03-12T22:49:00.003+11:00

Ditengah-tengah kekecohan bencana alam, terasa janggal mahu mengaku diri ini sedang gembira.. sedang merasakan sangat kasih-sayang Allah terhadap diri...Tapi itu yg sy rasakan, and I'm not gonna deny it.Ya Allah, I feel loved.Tapi semalam terkena sikit, yela.. bersyukur.. apa makna merasakan nikmat Allah keatas diri kalau tak dilestarikan dengan amal. (Betul ke penggunaan lestari ni ? apa maksud

205:

2011-02-17T01:42:00.003+11:00

Everyday we are bound to learn something new about ourselves. Life is a learning process. I am learning, still. I want to learn more, still. I am a curious being. I ask people way too many questions sometimes. I am not judging you, I am not testing your own understanding. I am learning. I am a curious being. I want to understand, so so so much.--Third week of KPLI. I can feel that my idealism is

204:

2011-02-07T00:23:00.002+11:00

Tarbiyyahlah yang telah membentukku.Dan aku masih flexible. Masih bisa dibentuk dan dilentur. Dan ianya bisa dilakukan oleh apa-apa aja. The key is to make sure tarbiyyahlah yang sentiasa membentukku. Hingga ke akhirnya. Hingga REDHA-NYA.It's a continuous struggle. From the moment you are awake till your last breath... you are not taking breaks, not even in your sleep.. because at that time, your

203:

2011-02-02T13:24:00.000+11:00

I guess my common sense is not so common after all.

202:

2011-01-20T19:00:00.002+11:00

Time passes surprisingly slower now that I am home. Maybe because of the routines, maybe because of anticipation. I am not sure.My teaching course will commence next week. Another year of study, uhuhu. Heard a lot of good and bad things about it. But I'd say, "Bring it on.." I want to get it over and done with. Trials and pains are inevitable. You might as well go through it optimistically

201: Life is short

2011-01-03T16:14:00.001+11:00

Life is short. You made a decision one second, then suddenly you were living with the consequence 20 years later. Tak kisah la apa pun pilihan yang dibuat. Apa yang penting adalah ikhlas yang mendalam hanya kerana Allah dan redha-Nya, dan syariat yang dituruti. I couldn't typed this out without sounding so schematic, cliche and all 'ustazah'. But it couldn't be more true. Aku hanya mahu menjadi

200:

2010-12-27T20:49:00.002+11:00

Ujian-ujian adalah menyucikan. Until we meet Allah in the purest state of the heart. La ilaha illa Allah .. ---Alhamdulillah Ya Allah...Thank you Allah...Thank You ...---Ujian-ujian adalah menyucikan.

199:

2010-12-27T11:44:00.003+11:00

"Oh, ini ke anak kak dayat yang kat Mesir tu?""Eh tak, Melbourne" *senyum*at different occasion"Dah kerja ke?""Belum, baru habis belajar, insyaAllah akan jadi cikgu""Oh, ustazah ye? ngajar agama?""Eh tak, Physics insyaAllah" *senyum lagi*

198: Clarity

2010-12-21T22:03:00.002+11:00

It's like, you are about to jump the bungee, but you pause for a moment before you let go. That pause. It doesn't mean that you don't want to jump. You just need that moment to be prepared. A moment of clarity. To be clear of what you really want. And how much you want it. Or maybe just to be sure that everything's alright if you let go now. Like, no tangled rope around your leg, or that your

197:

2010-12-20T13:01:00.002+11:00

Melbourne is more than 6000 miles away now. It's been almost a week since I arrived here. I tried to be ready for any possibilities of events. Expect the unexpected. And I guess till now I am calm. Yes, calm.Change is good. I have the power to decide who I want to be. I choose to be who I think the best I should be. Idealist at the start, realist in the heart. Whatever that means.This is a new

196:

2010-12-12T10:52:00.004+11:00

For everyone that's been asking, I'm not attending the graduation ceremony here. I'll graduate next year in Malaysia insyaAllah :). Nah siap ada award level.Alhamdulillah ...

195:

2010-12-11T23:54:00.003+11:00

I'll be going back earlier than expected. Sedang cuak sekarang! mixed feelings... and my to-do list is endless!Keep me in you do'a..See you in Malaysia :) InsyaAllah

194: 9 days

2010-12-09T15:50:00.003+11:00

Alhamdulillah... all done!!"Well, I guess you are considered passed now"This maybe the last time I visited a beach in Melbourne2 month old Sofiyah :) I made her laugh out loud for the first time! yay!Thank you dear adik2 housemates :) I received lots and lots of chocolates recently, just now my fellow honours student gave me chocs as well. Urgh. Very bad very bad..I guess I'll be needing a new

193:

2010-12-08T14:31:00.000+11:00

The future is something so scary. When you realized how scary it is, you don't feel like moving at all. Uncertainties. I hate uncertainties. But this just shows how shallow my understanding on the dependence on Allah.Hasbiyallah wa ni'mal wakeel.

192:

2010-11-30T20:28:00.002+11:00

Results are in and my flight is confirmed to be on the 18th. But believe it or not I am not quite done here. I still need to do my talk which is scheduled on Thursday, next week. But no need to worry, just need to get it over and done with. In the mean time, I've got packing and shipping to do, friends to visit, people to get in touch with, a weekend retreat to attend, painful shopping for others

191:

2010-11-24T07:52:00.001+11:00

The clock is ticking. My time here is coming to an end. Honestly, right now all I'm feeling is how I just want to leave this place. I cannot wait to be back. This year is emotionally exhausting and I am tired. But I am not running away. This is the right move. To let go. To move on. To survive. To revive.I am not attaching my heart to anything. I know I cannot blame the place or environment on

190: Hyperventilating

2010-11-19T10:57:00.005+11:00

cepat la habis cepat la habis ... penat dah tengok benda yg sama.. can't imagine doing phd..doa mesti terus peeps..next is presentation...I hope my supervisor does not google my name. First link that comes out is this blog! huhu..

189:

2010-11-13T11:10:00.003+11:00

Awak, mungkin Allah tak bagi something yg kita nak sangat, sebab kalau kita dapat sesuatu tu, kita terus depend on that something, and pergantungan kepada Allah tercacat...it's not wrong to be dependant on people, but it is something dangerous ... supaya kita jelas 100% hati kita ini milik siapa... supaya kita sedar kemampuan diri yg sebenar... supaya meletakkan cinta pada tempat yg sepatutnya..

188: That's not the way it works

2010-11-08T23:44:00.002+11:00

I wish that somehow You’d tell me out aloud That on that day I’ll be okay But we’ll never know ‘causeThat’s not the way it worksMy Lord show me right from wrongGive me light make me strongI know the road is longMake me strongSometimes it just gets too much I feel that I’ve lost touch I know the road is long Make me strong~Sami Yusuf in "Make me strong" 2010my theme song for this period of my life

187:

2010-11-02T23:31:00.003+11:00

I realized how little I know about you.I wept because of the distance between us.You are amazing, you need to know that.And I am going to miss you.This is ending too soon, ey?.. and I still have lots to say.. lots of things unfulfilled.. and I'm sorryBut it is for the best..Yes it is for the best.InsyaAllah.Sudden sparks .. dedicated to my Abrar

186:

2010-10-29T09:08:00.001+11:00

Hampir aku hanyut kerana rindu Pada harta yang pasti reput Dan lenyap di sini Hampir aku lupa pada Yang Kekal Kejahilan menyelubungi jiwaku Sekelipnya mata hilang semua Yang hanya ku pandang Yang hanya milik-Mu Yang hanya kuidam Di dalam pandangan-Mu Bersama mereka terdahulu Sungguh aku cari cahaya itu Untuk menyuluh kelam ini Setelah kudipaling Sungguh aku hina menagih secebis Keampunan-Mu

185:

2010-10-21T00:06:00.003+11:00

I defered my graduation. Alhamdulillah tenang sikit rasa. Kalau tak stress juga nak siapkan thesis ni dengan kebarangkalian tak dapat nak siap asik bermain-main di kepala di saat perlu buat keputusan tentang graduasi dikala keadaan kewangan bukanlah di tahap yang best sangat, hundreds of dollar for an event.. wah pandainya mereka mencari duit tetapi tak se'pandai' kroni2 di Malaysia yang cuba

184:

2010-10-15T13:26:00.001+11:00

I am scared.

183: Behind the name

2010-10-06T20:23:00.004+11:00

I like the response I get whenever I told my name to any local muslims here."Masya-Allah, what a beautiful name,sister!""SubhanaAllah! The wife of prophet Muhammad s.a.w!""Really? I also have a friend with the same name""I love that name!"I don't like the response whenever I told my name to Malaysians."Klasik""Nama orang tua ek""Ape dia, again?""Oh.."Or just a very meaningful smile.---Okay, saje

182: Jimat siang

2010-10-03T08:50:00.002+11:00

Daylight saving starts today. Although I've been through this twice a year for 4 years in a row now, it never fails to confuse me in the morning.Did my computer adjust its clock automatically? How about my phone? Do I have to change the setting anywhere? How can I tell when it has changed itself or not? Am I supposed to minus or add one hour?Okay. so, dear family in Malaysia, now the time

181: Sakura 2010

2010-09-27T10:59:00.001+10:00

Spring Aku & Kamu, Untuk Redha Allah:)

180: Unusual of me, posting something like this

2010-09-24T13:16:00.004+10:00

I have the ability to de-associate my mind from thinking about something. This comes in handy most of the time, and it's doing me good, keeping me from feeling too stressed due to the nature of just being a human; you have too many things to do with the little time you have..But it's also pretty dangerous. I can let go of something so easily. (But this does not apply to something I really really

179:

2010-09-17T22:36:00.001+10:00

All the best, Ahmad.May Allah bless and ease your journey there.Jaga diri baik-baik. Belajar rajin-rajin. Cari banyak pengalaman.Call mak/abah seminggu sekali at least.

178:

2010-09-15T21:44:00.002+10:00

:)Balik Malaysia 2 minggu. Sempat iftar, solat terawih, bertazkirah, raya etc2 bersama-sama keluarga tercinta.2 dunia, malaysia dan melbourne. Macam mimpi.Mimpi dalam mimpi.Sekarang sudah kene bangun, mai oi.6 weeks. I have 6 weeks before submitting my thesis. 6 weeks. At this rate I should be working days and nights. Please, Mai.. start panicking, please?Sekarang sedang demam. Rindu.......

179: Namaewa Mai

2010-08-13T11:55:00.003+10:00

Here's another round of random pictures taken here and there. Yours truly's life from the lens of her pink Sony Cybershot..Sample WVM12. There's this engraver in the lab that made me so jakun. I even engraved my log book which caused irreversible damage. (Mana boleh engrave kertas, munah oi.. walaupun hakikatnya kertas tu tebal dan keras!!) This is the instrument that makes the most annoying

178:

2010-08-12T11:24:00.003+10:00

Something traumatic happened last night on the tram. I swear I'm not gonna go back by tram at night ever again, alone. Walking seems much safer. Oh the irony of life...GOSH!! macammana nak lupa ye???Today is 1st Ramadhan. Padan muka sendiri kot sebab balik lambat dr uni semalam padahal org lain sibuk nak habis kerja cepat2 and focus on malam pertama~~Bajet rajin, padahal tak. I was waiting for

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2010-08-11T17:50:00.002+10:00

Ramadhan is here.And I'm still alive.Alhamdulillah.Mixed feelings, though.:(:DX):<:):)))))Allahumma barikli..

176:

2010-08-09T16:15:00.002+10:00

What has changed?Years passed with all the events in them. All the trials, hardships, smile, laughters and tears, without me realizing it, they changed me.Mistakes made, hikmah gained.Life's an art. You can't be rigid in living your life. There's no rules without terms and conditions. There's always space, where ambiguity sits.I'm glad, actually. I never regret all those tests. (although at that

175: Mixed and random

2010-07-29T10:44:00.001+10:00

174: Because that's the way it is

2010-07-18T08:53:00.002+10:00

I miss the times when "sebab iyer.." satisfied all my "why?".Life was so simple back then.:)..because, that's the way it is

173:

2010-07-15T08:18:00.002+10:00

Dear Abah,semalam munah mimpi, abah kata abah tengah kaya sekarang, munah boleh minta apa-apa aje. So munah minta abah beli ticket utk akhir tahun ni.. for my graduation.:)

172: Winter is not ending yet

2010-07-10T19:22:00.003+10:00

171:

2010-06-23T22:04:00.002+10:00

Hari ini birthday Nuha. Adikku yang ke *emm.. kira jap..* oh, yang keenam. Tadi bila nak wish, dok kira-kira birthday yang keberapa. Tetibe cam terkejut. Oh, 12. Dua belas. Dah beso dah adikku. Dan teenager.Setiap kali kalau nak balik summer (atau balik msia la secara generalnya), mesti beli souvenir utk siblings. And when it comes to buy for Hayat and Nuha, mesti fikir beli gula-gula, coklat ke.

170:

2010-06-19T13:56:00.002+10:00

"It's hard to write. But it's harder not to"-Carl Van Doren

169:

2010-06-13T20:14:00.004+10:00

The internet used to be so private. I mean, I never had to be so paranoid if this or that person will read whatever crap I write.I started blogging 7 years ago, when I was in form 4. At that time, barely any of my friends know what a blog is. Yahoo messenger's users were so scarce too. My online friends were mostly people I've never met; penpals and people that shared interests. Friends at school

168: Syuhada' yang kukenali

2010-06-04T01:24:00.004+10:00

When the Mavi Marmara was attacked, reality hit me.I used to feel so distant and irrelevant about the conflicts. Yeah, people are talking about the genocide, open air prison, boycotting, the zionist conspiracy etc etc. Yeah, I was aware and I thought I understand the situation. I boycotted because that's a logical thing to do. I supported the cause. I said I'm fighting for them. "Untukmu

167: SEM steps

2010-05-26T19:19:00.002+10:00

Obviously I need more ideas to blog..In the mean time, ambek ni..Gold coat your sample ..This is the machine.. XL30 Scanning Electron Microscopethen, report report report la.. (n obviously I haven't done it)

166: Our Love Story

2010-05-23T16:34:00.003+10:00

You said you love him.What if anyone asks you.."So, Mai.. tell me about your love story"Will you able to curl a smile and tell that person without hesitation "Oh yeah, it's the sweetest thing, it starts when..."Will you be able to? honestly...?and with "Happily ever after!" at the end...Can you say you're in love with someone but you don't have any story to tell??--I love Rasulullah...honestly,

165: Nikmat dunia

2010-05-18T12:01:00.002+10:00

Lord of the fries..Fries with Belgian & Italian Sauces, and regular vege burger (with mock meat!)Sangat sedap fries with the sauces itu... definitely am gonna miss this if i were to go back..Alak nak makan kek, so I brought her to this cafe. Sahara...Lemon meringue and Mars cake ..cappucino and chai latte (heheh nyesal order chai ye alak?)Our shopping place.. ALDI.. murah2 barangnye, sesuai utk

164:

2010-05-18T08:07:00.002+10:00

When I pass I don’t want to leave a life of regret So I give rise to change today by trying not to forget That pleasures do pass and sunrises end and stars do fade away But it’s love and it’s virtue and honor and truth that remain for all days..I want that final breath to be the sweetest of all And it will be with certainty if I answer the call To help all those in need and decipher the meaning

163: The return of Modulus

2010-05-13T16:36:00.005+10:00

Oh Allah forgive me... inni zholamtu nafsi..I need to submit the reviews for 10 papers tomorrow.... but I have done none. NONE. I was/am struggling to make sense of the articles... dah baca bape round still tak make sense.. macammana nak summarize??Then my mind is preoccupied by unnecessary stuff. Oh Allah help me get rid of all these thoughts. At least for now. Tak payah risau bende2 yg tak

162:

2010-05-09T11:07:00.002+10:00

Feel like calling my dear mama but she's in Makassar right now.--Everyone lives. Everyone works hard for something. Everyone feels tired. Everyone feels pain. Everyone hurts. Everyone feels joy. Everyone wants happiness. Everyone has dreams. Everyone races against something. Everyone lives. And everyone dies...".. wa fizalika fal yatanafasil mutanafisun.."Just make sure your fight is worthwhile.

161: Manual

2010-05-06T10:52:00.002+10:00

Dia kata "Yes, you can ask people and get the answer.. but how can you be sure he has the right answer? always refer to the manual! The manufacturer knows better." So true isn't it? Of course he's refering to the handling of the machine in the Colloid lab. But...

160: Random

2010-05-05T10:40:00.002+10:00

Thank you dear adiks for the treat..Ape-apelah ui~I hate the walk to class. It's too busy. Too noisy. You can see Victoria Market there..Multi-million dollar project :p cikai tak cikai my hons project. Heh, just kidding. This is just me preparing the glass slides for my use in electron microscopy..

159: Honours?

2010-05-01T06:53:00.005+10:00

That's building 14.. School of Applied PhysicsWorks are piling up without me realizing it. That's why I repeatedly said that Honours year is not for me. No timetable, no schedule, you have to have such self-discipline to make sure you're on top of everything. Lagi-lagi di RMIT yg agak lay back berbanding Monash n Melbourne Uni...Paper review in 2 weeks time. 10 papers need to be reviewed. I am so

158: Dulu

2010-04-24T02:37:00.002+10:00

Something that made me smile today.."I need to study hard… excel in Advanced Placement, n get a place in Uni of Melbourne. It doesn’t matter whether I can really go or not. I just want a place there. To prove that I really can…" - written on 5th March 2006"I really am praying for miracle.. that somehow I’ll get band 5 for the paper. That somehow, the universities don’t care about AP… that somehow

157:

2010-04-22T08:54:00.003+10:00

Nak balik...kene 1)mintak cuti kat supervisor 2)mintak cuti kat --- 3)mintak duit kat ---

156: Macro

2010-04-16T07:03:00.003+10:00

We spent a nice (I wanted to write weekend but realize it was Wednesday :p) day out to visit Kak Aliya (Thank you so much akak!!) at Frankston and we visited some interesting places around Mornington Peninsular. I tried uploading photos on facebook but it kept on failing on me. Kiciwa! I'm currently trying again.In the mean time, I want to show off my (not so) skillful macro shots. Jakun neh. The

155: Adelaide

2010-04-02T11:13:00.004+11:00

Salaam..My last autumn break is here.. kejap nye RMIT cuti. Tak sampai seminggu.Akan bertolak ke Adelaide petang ni, until Selasa insyaAllah. My fourth time. End of first year, summer holiday. Spring break of second year. Then summer the same year. And today, autumn of my fourth year.Fi amanillah li kullukum..Whatever you're planning, wherever you're heading ..Adik-adik housemates yg stay here..

154: My thoughts, really fragmented!

2010-03-28T22:12:00.003+11:00

I am heartless...Oh sambal tumis ikan bilis ui~---Lama dah tak tulis random-random cenggini. Lama dah tak update blog sebenarnya. Mak dah bising. "Update la.. bagi tazkirah..letak gambar-gambar macam dulu awak buat tu..."Uish huhuhu...Hati ini yg perlukan tazkirah..Orang yang takde sesuatu tak boleh memberi sesuatu..You cannot give something that you don't have..Conservation of energy... can

153: Auscape 2010

2010-03-18T15:59:00.002+11:00

Jom pi Adelaide!Auscape BlogFacebook Event Page

152:

2010-02-17T13:08:00.002+11:00

What beats going around Hidden Valley in a convertible at sunset?Sekali-sekala terasa nikmat dunia tu sangat indah... :)Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal..p/s: I'm offically an RMIT student now

151: Pantai

2010-01-24T20:13:00.005+11:00

One thing I love about Melbourne is the fact that all the beautiful beaches are easy to be reached.Last Friday we went to Brighton Beach, by tram + train + a bit of a walk, though agak silap timing since hari tu panas (haha tetibe tuka bahasa, bear with me) dan bila panas tu paham-paham je la apa ada kat pantai. Free show, free sins :p .Tapi kami berjaya menjumpai satu tapak yang suci, tidak

150: BerKIBAR

2010-01-06T07:03:00.003+11:00

Click the picture for larger resolution.Please contact any of the phone numbers displayed for registration! Don't miss it!!I'm here in Melbourne.. Kalau tak mesti dah pergi! BestnyeeeeSouthern Gathering 2010 for future students of Australia & New Zealand. No fees tuh!Kibar 2010 for current students :)For more information of location and updates: http://summerkita09.blogspot.com

149: Satu Ketenangan

2010-01-01T20:49:00.003+11:00

Pada 31 Disember 2009, satu ketenangan telah pergi..To Sakee.... Bon Voyage!I miss you already. T_TThank you so much for everything.Jazakillahu khayran kathira...I thank Allah for you...Love you fillah.

148: Transition

2010-01-01T20:40:00.002+11:00

I misplaced the transfer cable for my camera. Hence I cannot rely on pictures to update this time around.Yes, I'm staying here in Melbourne for the rest of summer break, waiting for the commencement of my Honours year . 2 months left.Oh, It's a new year.On 31 December, one year ago, I went back to Malaysia. On 1st January 2009, I reached home.---It's 1 January 2010.At 12 midnight the fireworks

147: Aya

2009-12-25T00:43:00.004+11:00

Masa: Siang tadiVenue: Dalam kereta ImanCik In yang sedang drive: Eh, tak call lagi rumah nak tanya adik macammana. Hari ni result PMR keluar.Saya: Oh ha'ah ek!! Saya tak ingat pulak. Kene kol umah jugak ni. (Terus capai henpon dan mencari 'Mama' lalu menekan button call).Mama: Assalamualaikum.Saya: Waalaikumussalam. Mama, ni munah ni!Mama: Ooo.. ape khabar kamu?Saya: Baik Alhamdulillah. Hehe.

146:

2009-12-21T18:35:00.002+11:00

If you can keep your head when all about you Are losing theirs and blaming it on youIf you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, But make allowance for their doubting too; If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, Or being lied about, don't deal in lies, Or being hated, don't give way to hating, And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise..-excerpt from 'IF' by Rudyard KiplingI

145:

2009-12-19T09:36:00.004+11:00

This morning I sent off my roommate of 3 years, at the airport. I'm never good at good-byes. I'm never good in reacting. Kak Wani asked me, "How does it feel? Are you sad?" Hmm, I don't know, really. I am not sure. Separation with the one we love will always cause some kind of heart ache, at least, right? Yes, I am sad, but I am happy. This is kind of like a happy ending to our journey together.

144:

2009-12-12T03:49:00.004+11:00

Assalamualaikum wbtSubhanallah. Alhamdulillah.Semalam ke uni, uruskan beberapa urusan. Ambil academic transcript sebab kena post ke Monash and RMIT. Excited sangat bila dapat transcript tu.. sebab bawah tu tulis:Macam tak percaya. All those sleepless nights, countless mug of coffees, anxiousness, agitation, kebersepahan bilik with notes, paper n ketidakurusan hidup (this, Mar had to withstand,

143: Oh, its 143, I Love You.

2009-12-10T19:37:00.004+11:00

All praise is due to Allah. Ar-Razzaq. Al-Fattah. Al-Hakeem. Al-Waduud.Surreal it is. Now I am not sure of what to write. It's easier to just put photos, then I can leave the flow of the story to audience's guesses. I felt reluctant to write before, since there wasn't much to write anyway, except the fact that I was so worried. Result result result.Is this the end of this chapter called "My

142: 11 days

2009-12-07T23:09:00.005+11:00

141: Oh

2009-11-26T14:12:00.002+11:00

SalamI'm done.Oh, I want to graduate. Takut.Semoga Allah passkan everything, or better yet, excel so that confirming Honours.And now the after effect, headache.Jumpa lagi!Salam Aidiladha!!

140: Seratus empat puluh dah!

2009-11-17T16:30:00.001+11:00

What I need..What I shouldn't be doing but I did...What I need to do...

139: Okayh

2009-11-16T23:48:00.003+11:00

Alhamdulillah. Electrodynamics paper done.Lega. But at the same time I feel a bit indefferent. Do'a u guys mungkin? Alhamdulillah tak rasa excessively panic and worried although my answers tak lah sesempurna yang diharapkan. But I feel.. tenang. Yerp, that's the word. Tenang. Mencari-mencari perkataan to describe my feeling dari tadi. Baru terkeluar. Tawakal. Serah pada Allah. Usaha-usaha sebelum

138: Warna-warni SwotVac

2009-11-13T10:45:00.002+11:00

137:

2009-11-10T22:28:00.003+11:00

Mendengar lectures yg overdue. So last minute la me.. Eh, I attended most (of not all) lectures ye, cumanya it was hard to concentrate the first time around. Sikit lagi nak habiskan till lecture 30.Nothing much to write about when we're in the exam period (tak patut update blog pun in the first place, Mai!), study study study je la kot. He knows best what I've been doing. Huhu. Of course it's

136:

2009-11-07T19:52:00.003+11:00

Kerana (eh, salah ke tatabahasa start ayat dengan perkataan kerana?) saya amat susah fokus, diri ini mencari alasan buat sesuatu supaya boleh naik semangat belajo sikit. So petang tadi byk masa membaca artikel-artikel. Yang of course tidak berkaitan dengan physics secara directnye (sebab of course, everything pun ada kaitan dengan physics sebab physics is a fundamental science.. ha bangkang la

135: Whatever it takes

2009-11-06T19:55:00.001+11:00

Bacalah sampai faham. Sampai masuk ke hati.67: 22

134: Kot kot

2009-11-05T22:10:00.002+11:00

Huh. Hari yang sungguh tidak produktif. Berusaha, tapi tak dapat jawapan. Stuck lama at one question. Pass dulu. Stuck lagi. Stuck lagi. Stuck lagi. Ended up banyak breaks. Ended up asik dok menekan reload inbox gmail, all items kat reader and live feeds kat fb. Takde keje. Rasa sangat membazir nye sehari dok uni. Takde hasil. Geram kat diri. Tak baca doa kot?? Hati tak bersih kot?? Niat lari kot

133: Fitnah

2009-11-04T06:48:00.003+11:00

Macammana orang boleh senang-senang aje mengatakan sesuatu? Akhir-akhir ini sangat banyak isu timbul berkaitan ini. Sangkaan-sangkaan dijadikan hujah. Sangkaan-sangkaan menjadi fitnah.Hey, tak berimankah? tak takutkah? Sesungguhnya lidah itu akan disoal.Kadang-kadang rasa macam tak masuk akal wujud jugak certain people yang sungguh 'lay back' dalam mengfitnah orang.Orang berkelulusan bidang

132: Entry before ni patutnya 131

2009-11-02T19:12:00.003+11:00

Alhamdulillah, I successfully submitted the last submission for my third year. Kelegaan. Al-Insyirah. Start esok (erk, nape bukan hari ni?) akan dapat fokus and pulun. The heat is on.Also, I just submitted the University of Melbourne's honours application. Now I leave it to Allah. Yang terbaik, Ya Allah. Yang terbaik...Need to settle a few things before I can submit RMIT's application. Monash ni,

130: Humidity

2009-11-01T05:34:00.003+11:00

Malam tadi hujan agak lebat (untuk standard Melbourne. kalau standard mesia hujan renyai-renyai kot). Sebelum hujan, kilat berkali-kali. Strange, aku rasa. Jarang sungguh Melbourne bercuaca begini. Hoho. Hari kebelakangan ni agak panas. Dan sangat humid because of the rain. Hari tu selepas a day spent at the library, keluar je, spontaneously kawan cakap "Eh, rasa macam kat Malaysia!". The way you

2009-10-30T16:24:00.004+11:00

I've been talking to potential supervisors since weeks ago and up to today I've met 4 supervisors at melbourne uni and one at the RMIT. Monash is too far and exam is too near. I don't know when I can go there. I'm still waiting for some who hasn't replied my email.All these honours stuff, are scary. I don't have the confidence, honestly. Language has been the major barrier. Because what we need