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Everyday we are bound to learn something new about ourselves. Life is a learning process. I am learning, still. I want to learn more, still. I am a curious being. I ask people way too many questions sometimes. I am not judging you, I am not testing your own understanding. I am learning. I am a curious being. I want to understand, so so so much.

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Third week of KPLI. I can feel that my idealism is beginning to fade. Sheshhh.. I am a realist from the start. I am a physicist. I am a logical person. I reason way too well. Wah, perasan.

We had a culture shock at our own country. What an irony.

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Too many works to do. Just too many.

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Too many stories to tell. Just too many. Yet so little time.

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Mujahadah linafsihi...

I need to be strong since the very beginning. I want to go through it strong. I want to finish strong. Do not hope for strength later if you are too afraid to be strong now. Afterall, life is about choices. You can choose. Really. Be brave, be strong.

La hawla wala quwwata illa billah.

"Ya Allah, kurniakan aku hikmah..."

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Tarbiyyahlah yang telah membentukku.

Dan aku masih flexible. Masih bisa dibentuk dan dilentur. Dan ianya bisa dilakukan oleh apa-apa aja. The key is to make sure tarbiyyahlah yang sentiasa membentukku. Hingga ke akhirnya. Hingga REDHA-NYA.

It's a continuous struggle. From the moment you are awake till your last breath... you are not taking breaks, not even in your sleep.. because at that time, your heart is still conscious.. your thoughts still dominate ...

Jangan dipuji aku. Jangan dibenci aku. Aku ini masih belum mati.

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I guess my common sense is not so common after all.