Thursday, March 3, 2016

248: dreams

This morning I woke up feeling not a bit refreshed. I had this weird dream where I heard a familiar musics but it was annoying and went on forever. I tried to find the 'switch' to stop it, but to no avail. I ran here and there trying to find the source, panjat almari, tutup power supply for the whole building, tapi the sound didnt stop! I even had some random guys walked in and asked me 'Madam, pls turn off the musics, we have some works to do.." to that i said "yeah, i'm trying here!!"

Guess what the sound was?

yes, my alarm clock! No wonder I couldn't turn it off in my dream. I had to wake up and push the snooze button!!!

Still feeling 'meh'. No mood today.

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

247: Exhausted

Of course, I am not the most exhausted person on earth. But oh well, it helps when we talk about it.. just to ventilate.

Being a woman that plays multiple roles at once is surely the most challenging phase of my life right now. A phase that never ends, actually. A daughter, a wife, a mother, a teacher, an employee.. not to mention the fact that being a mother means playing hundreds roles and a teacher a thousand more!

Expectation is the cause of all heartache. It is harder when you put expectation on yourself. Dissapointment with your own self. That led to self pity. That led to jealousy. That led to kufr ni'mah. Astarghfirullah..

La'in syakartum la'azidannakum..

Bersyukur, dan Allah akan tambah ..

Positive attracts ...

Thank you Allah for this life full of adventures!! I love YOU!!!!