Thursday, February 23, 2017

251: Going with the flow

I don't know why,  but this year, work suddenly gets so hectic. I barely have time to catch my breath after each class,  there are thousands of stuff that i need to do. My brain is also constantly thinking about so many things. I feel so tired but i cannot stop.

My only rest time is my night sleep when the kids are already asleep.  Like right now..  But the mind still refuses to shut down. Thinking about the observation on sunday,  need to prepare the toolkits for it, science competition for 2 classes that need to be finalised by wednesday, the prep,  the script, the shooting...  Thinking about lesson planning, what to do each day,  what to bring each day, thinking about the kids..  How they havent fully recover from their cough and flu yet but still being sent to school,  guilt feeling.. Thinking about why is it so hard for yusuf to doze off...

And i terdoze off for few seconds just now... I guess its time..

Thursday, February 2, 2017

250: The little things

Being a science teacher has its perk. Due to family commitment, i rarely have the opportunity to attend islamic classes or lectures anymore,  no matter how much i yearn to. But, when i'm teaching in class,  i rediscover points that used to touched me in the past. I am being reminded of the little things that Allah has bestowed on all of us that brings huge meaning.

For instance, in the last lesson about the human eye, how magical and magnificent Allah's creation is. Our eye lens,  one thing that we take for granted. How the lens can focus and unfocus at objects instantly,  sometimes without even think about it. And how we have this eyes since we were born but they are still flexible and working effortlessly. 

I love the fact that i am teaching the facts  about this world and how it is so close fo our fitrah. I can easily relate any topics to makrifatullah..  But the challenge is to be able to balance out everything.. Lesson planning with the current syllabus, need to incorporate everything, from STEM, HOTS,  HEBAT,  pdpc PAK21..  And many more!

Anyhow, I am determined to do my best,  but the start of every year proved to be very challenging,  especially now i have small children (3 kids under 5!). I am still struggling with time management and my incompetency in handling everything T_T

Kalau ada org yang boleh buat,  so can I!

But like last year,  i had this kind of motivation at early start of the year,  too.  But i failed in keeping up the momentum.  Too bad.  Reading last years blog entries is the proof.  Haha.  But,  i am not giving up in myself..

I pray to Allah so that He will teach me how to be more organised and effective..  As a spouse, a mother, a daughter and a teacher.  And...  Of course the best servant of His.