Monday, December 27, 2010


Ujian-ujian adalah menyucikan. Until we meet Allah in the purest state of the heart.

La ilaha illa Allah ..


Alhamdulillah Ya Allah...
Thank you Allah...

Thank You ...


Ujian-ujian adalah menyucikan.


"Oh, ini ke anak kak dayat yang kat Mesir tu?"

"Eh tak, Melbourne" *senyum*

at different occasion

"Dah kerja ke?"

"Belum, baru habis belajar, insyaAllah akan jadi cikgu"

"Oh, ustazah ye? ngajar agama?"

"Eh tak, Physics insyaAllah" *senyum lagi*

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

198: Clarity

It's like, you are about to jump the bungee, but you pause for a moment before you let go. That pause. It doesn't mean that you don't want to jump. You just need that moment to be prepared. A moment of clarity. To be clear of what you really want. And how much you want it. Or maybe just to be sure that everything's alright if you let go now. Like, no tangled rope around your leg, or that your harness is really locked in place. Something like that.

I need to pause. I need to.

Not that I have ever tried bungee jumping :)

Monday, December 20, 2010


Melbourne is more than 6000 miles away now. It's been almost a week since I arrived here. I tried to be ready for any possibilities of events. Expect the unexpected. And I guess till now I am calm. Yes, calm.

Change is good. I have the power to decide who I want to be. I choose to be who I think the best I should be. Idealist at the start, realist in the heart. Whatever that means.

This is a new beginning. Al-Muntalaq.

Allahummahdini. In each and every little step that I take ...

Sunday, December 12, 2010


For everyone that's been asking, I'm not attending the graduation ceremony here. I'll graduate next year in Malaysia insyaAllah :). Nah siap ada award level.

Alhamdulillah ...

Saturday, December 11, 2010


I'll be going back earlier than expected. Sedang cuak sekarang! mixed feelings... and my to-do list is endless!

Keep me in you do'a..

See you in Malaysia :) InsyaAllah

Thursday, December 9, 2010

194: 9 days

Alhamdulillah... all done!!

"Well, I guess you are considered passed now"

This maybe the last time I visited a beach in Melbourne

2 month old Sofiyah :) I made her laugh out loud for the first time! yay!

Thank you dear adik2 housemates :) I received lots and lots of chocolates recently, just now my fellow honours student gave me chocs as well. Urgh. Very bad very bad..

I guess I'll be needing a new specs soon. Aaa banyaknye nak guna duit balik ni...

9 days.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010


The future is something so scary. When you realized how scary it is, you don't feel like moving at all. Uncertainties. I hate uncertainties. But this just shows how shallow my understanding on the dependence on Allah.

Hasbiyallah wa ni'mal wakeel.