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You ni, sabar ke, pengecut?

Kalau esok mati, menyesal ke dak?

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Dan bubur kauthar pun hangus lagi. Hmm.. convenience are so costly nowadays. Tak nak bubur hangus? beli lah slow cooker. Nak mudah masak and blend baby stuff? belilah hand blender. Banyak sangat baju nak iron? belilah steamer! Kalau tak nak invest in money, kene invest in kerajinan dan masa pula. Gosh, one of the thing that I think is the hardest is to be the domestic goddess yang I sangat lah tak kannn... but kerana besarnya rasa kasih sayang yang Allah anugerahkan (Subhanallah! alhamdulillah), sanggup kita perempuan ni kan, berusaha sebaiknya untuk anak dan suami.. saya rasa semua wanita pun fitrahnya begitu... walau macammana hardcore pun dirinya sebelum ini, bila anak dah menjelma dalam hidup, tersisip juga kelembutan yang tak disangka-sangka keluar....

... but sometimes I break down and cry jugak akibat kepenatan.

Moga Allah terus beri kekuatan dan tunjukkan jalan.

Okay Kauthar dah nanges. Jom mandi, pastu makan bubur hangus ye . Ummi tak sempat dah nak masak yang baru... luv u.

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Sometimes I forget .. that it's okay for me to be a human.

Showing emotions. Showing weaknesses.

I am no angel.


... and maybe make up for it when I feel better?

The perfectionist in me, hey, 
you are not perfect, so stop being so fidgety about everything

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Right now... I just want to dissapear ...

 .. not that it'll make any difference. I'm already non-existent in most people's memories and lives.

Allah ...

* kutip hikmah, yang bercebis-cebis ... susah nak nampak, nak kutip apatah lagi..

229:

Gosh, how I miss the luxury of writing a blog post. Long whiny one. Long meaningful one. Just when I decided to post a new entry, Kauthar  has already opened her eyes, tepuk-tepuking her stomach, blinking a few times searching for me, before resuming to cry...

Pftt... I want to write about a lot of things.

This should suffice for now. A start. Hmm.

Jom Kauthar. Budak bucuk. Jom mandi.