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.. and its still not stopping.

The firecrackers. And it has been 40 minutes since it started. And I can't sleep. And its way past 12.

Its deepavali. I feel like going through history, looking for when this firecracker tradition started. For every kind of celebration, there will be firecrackers..

I live in a multiracial neighbourhood. So for any holiday season, be it raya, chinese new year, diwali or random time of the year, there will be firecrackers.

I wonder how much money has been burnt? for it too be this long?

I tried to take a tolerant stand. They didnt complaint when its raya.

But seriously, I just dont get it.

Thank God my children slept thru it.

Okay, nothing to complain!

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I feel the need to revive the positive mindset I had when I was younger. The belief in the law of attraction and the dreams that came true.

The first step is acknowledge your weakness. I know I cannot multitask. I have hard time focusing. But I really want to further my study. I need to! It is a necessity!

So, my target is the HLP. Hadiah Latihan Persekutuan. Doing my master's degree while having cuti bergaji penuh.

Before this it sounds impossible since I am just a mediocre teacher, I havent achieved anything significant in my career. But after talking to few collegues of mine who actually got the scholarship, I feel so motivated now.

If I say I cant, that means I cant.
If I say I can, I can! I will. I am achieving it! with Allah's will. Kun fayakun.

So, dream on, live on!

Need to research on the steps. I heard to application only open mid year. So .. satu persatu, mun. One step at a time, slowly but surely.