58: Rains of death

Ini dan ini. Dan ini juga. More? ini

He said that such a massacre was possible thanks to Arab silence, European collusion and American support for Israeli occupation.

"This bloody day was never witnessed before in the Gaza Strip", Barhoum underlined, adding that 150 martyrs fell in less than half an hour while 200 others were injured.

I'm in rage. And, speechless.

Serangan, disamping masih dalam 'penjara', tak cukup bekalan, power outage, food shortage..

Macam pengecut menyerang org yang dilumpuhkan dan dikurung.

Kurniakan mereka kesabaran Ya Allah..
Allahummansurhum, allhummannsurna ala kaumil kafirin..

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And yet, people still nak pertahankan pendirian mereka to not boycotting??

So much resources, take time to read, think and take action!

57: Sayang Sama Summer

And suddenly, 4 days to go!

I'm glad I stay longer before going back. Apart from the wonderful weather (only the past few days the temperature started to rise), I am quite satisfied with all the things I managed to go through.

Attending graduations, summer camp, katibahs, jalan-jalan (to Phillip Island, to GOR), Adelaide, rewang and small makan2 for family yang dtg for graduation, boxing day shopping, visiting friends at the ladang tempat kerja, plenty of times for reading, and so on and so forth.

Makes me think, though. With all the events that I went through, do I try to extract anything and have I improved?

Tak mahu segalanya berlalu dengan sia-sia.

All the lesson learnt. Moga diamal.

Apa gunanya buat segala, berjalan ke sana, ke mari, memory card penuh with pictures, memory otak penuh with pengalaman, experience, .. dan hanya dibiarkan dalam memory? tak ke sia-sia?

After all, it's not what you know that is counted, but it's your amalan.

Anyway, can't wait to reach Malaysia.

1st January 2009, 8.40 am at Senai Airport! See you there InsyaALLAH.

56: What drives you?

Salam all..

Masa summer ni banyak peluang driving di sini. Hantar orang to/from airport, beli barang, ke GOR, ke Phillip Island, jalan-jalan around the city itself.. Makes me want to blog about it. The driving experience. Lain tau dengan Malaysia!

Basic rules are the same, but little2 things.

Seat belt is a must, for all including the passengers. Pernah one of my friend here kena saman sebab tak pakai seat belt (and she was sitting at the back, ok). Lepas tu semua insaf. Pakai seat belt sentiasa. Bila balik Malaysia, dah terbiasa.. pakai seat belt kat belakang kena gelak je!. Huhu. Tapi sekarang kat Malaysia dah wajib kan?

Jalan kat sini pelik-pelik sikit. Kena amat berhati-hati. Kene pastikan we're on the correct lane. Know where to change lane. Kalau silap lane, terus silap jalan. Ada service lane la, centre lane la..

Ada jalan tu kene mind everything! mind the tram, the train, the pedestrians. One such kind (exclude the train) is the big roundabout near my house. Itu adalah roundabout yang ramai org takut nak lalu (saya la especially) because it can gets real complicated especially time peak hours. Kalau penakut macam saya, akan stuck there for hours la.


Talk about roundabout. Aussie loves roundabout. Huhu. Sangat banyak kat sini dan bermacam-macam bentuk. Ada sekecik-keciknya hingga sebesar-besarnya. Bujur pun ada! bersambung2 dengan pelbagai cabang jalan. Can make me real pening.

Traffic light. Green doesn't mean you can go. Kene watch for pedestrians. Kene bagi derang jalan dulu. Ada turn with care. Walaupun hijau, kene tunggu kete yang opposite direction lalu sebelum boleh belok. Kene tau where to stop before turning.

And yang paling saya kagum, yellow means you stop. Heh. Kalau kat Malaysia, kalau kuning semua pakat pecut masa tu. Kat sini tak. Yellow je terus stop walaupun tak merah lagi.

Ade hook turn! yang ramai org takut. Tapi I think I get the hang of it now. Haha. Macam la susah sangat. Hook turn ade kat melbourne because of the design of the CBD (central business district) tu yang amat kotak-kotak.. so sgt byk simpang empat dan sangat banyak traffic light.

Oh yea, speed limit. Sangat ikut! kalau 80, 80 la.. kalau kat free way tu, semua kete 80 walaupun jalan straight dan kosong. Sgt jarang orang yang speeding ni. Semua ikut rules.

Overall, the driving experience in Melbourne makes you (or me at least) be more of a cautious driver. Sangat berhati-hati because it can be dangerous if you're not! Bagus for me because saya amat cuai sebelum ni dan kurang berhati-hati. Latihan yang bagus di OZ utk diapplykan di Malaysia nanti. heh.

Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.

:)

p/s: 15 days to go.. heh.. tetibe rasa sekejap pulak summer ni.

55: Eid and Gor

Okay, the pictures are supposed to be shown chronologically, but now they're all terbalik. The latest one is shown first pulak. But it's okay.

The desserts in our simple makan-makan sempena aidiladha. Main menu is nasi tomato + ayam masak merah + kambing masak kurma. Pictures of them aren't available.

A very cute lil girl masa solat raya di Debney's park. Sangat ramai budak-budak and babies yang comel-comel. Rasa macam nak culik sorang dua.

The crowds at Debney's park. Yup, the same venue masa raya aidil fitri juga. Best solat kat padang. Takbir dilaungkan tanpa was-was. Khutbah amat bersemangat. Walaupun the first part in arabic and I could barely understand, tapi terserap juga semangat bila dibacakan. Pasal surah al-kauthar. Dah banyak kenikmatan yang Allah bagi.. maka berkorbanlah!

Erskine Fall. At Lorne, along the Great Ocean Road. We went there a day before eid.

Alhamdulillah. Dapat ke sini lagi. My favorite place along the Great Ocean Road.
The Loch Ard Gorge. I can spend hours here. Seriously I can. Just sit there and stare at the beautiful scenery and listen to the harmonious sounds of nature.

The sand. Do you know, there are more galaxies in the universe than the sand on this earth all together?? Sangat banyak ok! And in one galaxy, there are approx. more than 500 millions of stars. And our sun is only one of those stars! We are so small, yet we can be real takabbur. Sungguh tidak sedar diri.

I'm here again. The 12 apostles. Never fail to ease the heart. Alhamdulillah.

Watching the sunrise..

Lately I become so kememeh. Need to be tougher. Kenapa jadi makin lemah pulak?

54: Change

Change. Berubah.
It's so possible that you have to agree.

Sometimes we tend to think like..
"Oh, this is me"
"Oh, I know I cannot be like this, but there's this one part in me that I can never change"
"I'm born like this"
"This is the way I was brought up!"

All the thoughts that keep us from THE CHANGE that we really want.
Sometimes we tend to think that idealism is something so ideal that can never be attained.

I tend to think like that, once upon a time.

I was brought up in a secure environment. I went to Islamic School since standard 3, until form 5. I was taught all the nilai-nilai murni dan islami since small. Some stick to me, become part of me, some hanya berlalu seperti angin sepoi-sepoi bahasa.

Akhlak. Yang rasa senang, amat mudah nak diamalkan, akan diamalkan hence menjadi akhlak. Yang macam susah, tak biasa, ditinggalkan, dan hanya menambah panjang list akhlak-akhlak yang I HOPED I could acquire.

Sabar, tahan marah, rajin, berlapang dada, etc2.. the list can be as long as you want. People always hope. Fitrahnya manusia mahukan akhlak-akhlak demikian dalam diri.

Honestly, what I personally felt is "I know, I have to be better. I want to be better. But I know myself more than anyone else, and there's this part in me that I KNOW I CAN NEVER CHANGE".

And there was also time when I became so frustrated with myself. "Why am I like this? Why am I DESTINED to be like this? Why oh why can't I change?"

But as I learnt more and more about Islam, Alhamdulillah, I came to this realization and reality that I can change.

Islam, selain menyempurnakan syariat dengan segala kesyumulannya, juga adalah untuk menyempurnakan akhlak yang mulia.

"Sesungguhnya aku diutus untuk menyempurnakan akhlak yang mulia" (HR Bukhari)

(Al-Ahzab 33:21)

Rasulullah dan para sahabat adalah manusia biasa seperti kita juga. Jahiliyah-jahiliyah yang mereka hadapi dan hidup dengannya adalah lebih teruk dari apa yang perlu kita buangkan dari dalam diri. Namun mereka berjaya berubah, dan menjadi generasi paling hebat pernah kita tahu, dengan akhlak yang sangat mantap. If they can do it, why can't we?

Pada Rasulullah ada contoh yang boleh sangat-sangat kita ikut. BAGI MEREKA YANG AMAT MEGHARAPKAN KEREDHAAN ALLAH. Only this matters and only this will keep us strong in our process of changing. Niat. Niat kita hanya kerana Allah dan kefahaman kita bahawa one day kita PASTI menghadap Allah kembali...

Mujahadah itu kunci. Struggle against all the evil and all the cubaan dan halangan that hinder us from istiqamah in our mujahadah untuk berubah.

Susah, memang susah. So hard. That's why it's so worth it. Syurga. That's why it's so worth it! Syurga sangat mahal ok. And it can be either syurga dan neraka~

Dan bila bermujahadah, dan berjaya berubah, barulah akan merasa manisnya.. sangat manis :)

It's a continuous struggle. And most often than not we will feel tired and weak. But imaan is the key. Our faith in Allah. Tiada daya dan tiada upaya, tiada kekuatan selain dari-Nya. This keep us strong. REAL STRONG.

Change, is possible.

And if you can sense that I'm changing (to the better of course), Alhamdulillah.
If you can sense that I'm not changing, keep on reminding the forgetful me~

53: Summer in Melbourne

Salam all. Wah, sudah lama tidak ku update ruangan ini. Exam ended around 2 weeks ago. I've been avoiding thinking about it. Personally, the last paper was the hardest paper ever for me. I didn't understand the concept so well, ended up memorising all the solution.. and went blank in the exam hall. NOT GOOD.

Anyway, I'm going to spend half of my summer holiday here in Melbourne. Interesting? So far so good. I'm not feeling so well right now, so I'll let the pictures do most of the talking. Summer in Melbourne.

Taken while studying for my second paper in the library. Listened to imeem using library laptop. Study tak menjadi sangat.

Hujan batu berlaku in the middle of exam period. Jakun sket. Ni atas bumbung dapur, taken from my bedroom window.

The kittens. 4 of them. From left: Husky Dusky, Lollipop, Cloud and Sky.

Husky, comel saat tidur sahaja.

My lovely sky. Tidur dalam posisi yang pelik.

Makcik baik on the bus in Greensborough.

Melbourne Central Station, platform 1. To Hurstbridge/Epping.

Junction, Pelham St/Elizabeth St.

Masjid Beddoe of Monash Uni, Clayton.

College Square. I used to live here.

The tram stop nearest to my house. Stop here for Pelham St, okay!

Langit yang cantik, di picnic area park ape ye.. in Epping.

Lake and sky. Same venue as above.

The road taken..

I took a similar photo years back:

In 2005.

Rougher terrain ahead :)
Perlu lebih kuat kerana hidup makin sukar. So true.
Moga lebih matang yo!
Dan lebih serius!

"Umat yang berjuang tidak mengenal selain bersungguh-sungguh"
who can guess who said the above quote?

Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.
Looking forward to explore more of Melbourne. Around 1 year left. I love Melbourne, really. Am gonna miss it.