Thursday, November 26, 2009

141: Oh

Salam

I'm done.

Oh, I want to graduate. Takut.

Semoga Allah passkan everything, or better yet, excel so that confirming Honours.

And now the after effect, headache.

Jumpa lagi!

Salam Aidiladha!!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

140: Seratus empat puluh dah!

What I need..


What I shouldn't be doing but I did...


What I need to do...

Monday, November 16, 2009

139: Okayh

Alhamdulillah. Electrodynamics paper done.

Lega. But at the same time I feel a bit indefferent. Do'a u guys mungkin? Alhamdulillah tak rasa excessively panic and worried although my answers tak lah sesempurna yang diharapkan. But I feel.. tenang. Yerp, that's the word. Tenang. Mencari-mencari perkataan to describe my feeling dari tadi. Baru terkeluar. Tawakal. Serah pada Allah. Usaha-usaha sebelum ni tak mungkin diubah. Nak risau camna pun tak guna.

Tapi, I still got the exam after effect -> major headache. Semoga Allah ampuni segala dosa. Banyak sangat dosa.. but yet nak Allah bagi kita a smooth sailing life? sungguh tak malu. Tadi dengar tazkirah tentang taubat. Syarat-syarat taubat diterima, one of them is IKHLAS. Sejauh mana aku ikhlas bertaubat. Refleksi diri sebenarnya. Sebab musim exam ni somehow mungkin hati tak ikhlas bertaubat. We know we committed sins. And we repent for the sake of He forgiving us, then give us ease and rezeki. Bukan sebenar-benar taubat in the sense that we really really feel sinful about it.. if you get what I mean. Tak reti nak phrase ayat lor. Boleh sama-sama investigate hati masing-masing. Bukan menuding jari ke sesiapa. Tetapi mengorek-ngorek rahsia hati sendiri.

Cewah. But, betul. Heh.

Petang tadi dah tidur jap. So headache dah berkurang. But the remnant is still there. Teringat Meissner effect of type II superconductor. Dia ada 2 critical temperature. Below the first one, all magnetic field is expelled completely, but above it, but still below the second critical temperature, the magnetic field starts to diffuse into the superconductor.

Okay, I digress. Terbawak-bawak sebab sibuk menghafal point-point for essay-like question which I'm very weak at. Budak physics tak reti nak explain things. They just know how to derive. Give us problem, we'll give you the answer.

Cewah again. But, betul.

Okay, next battle: Sub-Atomic Physics, 23rd Nov.

Tak cover langsung this subject since sangat focus on Electrodynamics (the core subject, the toughest, relatively) sampai boring dok ngadap notes Electrodynamics walaupun banyak lagi tak 'fasih'...

Semoga Allah kurniakan keberkatan masa.
Semoga Allah permudahkan.
Semoga Allah iringi setiap perbuatan perkataan everything yg berkaitan dgn kita .. dengan hidayahNya yang tak putus-putus.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

137:

Mendengar lectures yg overdue. So last minute la me.. Eh, I attended most (of not all) lectures ye, cumanya it was hard to concentrate the first time around. Sikit lagi nak habiskan till lecture 30.

Nothing much to write about when we're in the exam period (tak patut update blog pun in the first place, Mai!), study study study je la kot. He knows best what I've been doing. Huhu. Of course it's hard to focus 100% of the time. But I'm trying. Need to excel this final! Need to prove that I'm worth the honours year. Hah. Take that for a motivation, Mai!

Kepada mak, abah, adik-beradik, ipar-duai, kawan-kawan, auntie-auntie, pakcik-pakcik, let's pray for each other's success.

Saje, je update. Boring blog takde gambo baru.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

136:

Kerana (eh, salah ke tatabahasa start ayat dengan perkataan kerana?) saya amat susah fokus, diri ini mencari alasan buat sesuatu supaya boleh naik semangat belajo sikit. So petang tadi byk masa membaca artikel-artikel. Yang of course tidak berkaitan dengan physics secara directnye (sebab of course, everything pun ada kaitan dengan physics sebab physics is a fundamental science.. ha bangkang la bangkang..). Konklusi dari cubaan saya untuk belajar di rumah hari ini ialah: saya tidak boleh belajar di rumah. Esok perlu mewajibkan diri ke library.

Terbaca satu news dari utusan malaysia. (cari sendiri la) Yang menyentuh kesesatan 'satu ajaran'. Buat diri saya ketawa tidak tertahan. Mudah saja ya manusia melabelkan orang lain sesat. Uih, tak takut dosa ke? Nak kata tak belajar, siap grad over the red sea gitu. Terasa juga sebab dalam artikel tu ada menyentuh apa yang selama ni diri ini di ajar juga i.e. tauhid rububiyah, uluhiyah dan asma wa sifat. Cuba la cakap apa awk akan rasa bila orang kata apa yg awak belajar sedari tingkatan satu tu sesat?? Ewah, sedap2 aje. Buku pengertian tauhid tu Yusuf Qardhawi yg tulis kot. Orang ni kate belajar di Mesir, tak pernah terbaca ke buku Yusuf Qardhawi?

Ok, kemungkinan juga surat khabar tu memutar belitkan apa yang orang tu kata. I have to be careful too. Nak mengata orang pula. Sendiri juga dapat dosa tak berhati2 bila awal2 kata kat orang "tak takut dosa ke??". Sokkabo zaman skrg ni susah betul nak percaya. They can't even put the simplest fact right e.g. name, apetah lagi satu artikel yang penuh dgn fakta.. they're bound to be full with debatable facts and elaborations.

Anyway.. berkaitan bende2 gini.. menuduh orang/kumpulan tertentu macam2.. teringat sorang ni kata when someone asked him about one particular persatuan "susah nak kata.. you need to be inside it then you'll understand.. whatever people r saying about them are bound to be inaccurate..."

Teringat juga satu perenggan di artikel ustaz yang terkenal..

Jika ilmu mengajar manusia menjadi alim (berilmu), pengalaman membentuk manusia menjadi hakim (bijaksana).

Hmm..

Okeh. Ilmu dan Hikmah.

Apa kene mengena? ada lah kena mengena.

Okey. Sedikit cetusan yang tidak berbibliography dan references.

Sekian terima kasih.

Friday, November 6, 2009

135: Whatever it takes

Bacalah sampai faham. Sampai masuk ke hati.


67: 22

Thursday, November 5, 2009

134: Kot kot

Huh. Hari yang sungguh tidak produktif. Berusaha, tapi tak dapat jawapan. Stuck lama at one question. Pass dulu. Stuck lagi. Stuck lagi. Stuck lagi. Ended up banyak breaks. Ended up asik dok menekan reload inbox gmail, all items kat reader and live feeds kat fb. Takde keje. Rasa sangat membazir nye sehari dok uni. Takde hasil. Geram kat diri. Tak baca doa kot?? Hati tak bersih kot?? Niat lari kot?? Asik makan kot?? Asik berangan kot?? Asik google 'solutions' je kot?? nak cari jalan mudah je kot?? Berusaha kot??!!

Another week to go. Jangan menyesal, Mai.

Allahumma yasirli wala tuassir..

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

133: Fitnah

Macammana orang boleh senang-senang aje mengatakan sesuatu? Akhir-akhir ini sangat banyak isu timbul berkaitan ini. Sangkaan-sangkaan dijadikan hujah. Sangkaan-sangkaan menjadi fitnah.

Hey, tak berimankah? tak takutkah? Sesungguhnya lidah itu akan disoal.

Kadang-kadang rasa macam tak masuk akal wujud jugak certain people yang sungguh 'lay back' dalam mengfitnah orang.

Orang berkelulusan bidang keagamaa, orang yang berilmu, bijak pandai, orang yang berpengaruh, sometimes I think, hey tak logiknya! mana common sense nye nih?

Hadith 29 of Imam Nawawi's 40 Hadiths:

"O Messenger of Allah, tell me of a deed which will take me into Paradise and will keep me away from the Hell-fire." He said: "You have asked me about a great matter, yet it is, indeed, an easy matter for him to whom Allah Almighty makes it easy. (It is ) that you worship Allah without associating anything with Him, that you perform the prayers, that you pay the zakat, that you fast during Ramadan, and that you make the pilgrimage to the House."

Then he said: "Shall I not guide you to the gates of goodness? Fasting is a shield; charity extinguishes sin as water extinguishes fire; and a man's prayer in the middle of the night." Then he recited: "Who forsake their beds to cry unto their Lord in fear and hope, and spend of that We have bestowed on them. No soul knoweth what is kept hid for them of joy, as a reward for what they used to do". [Qu'ran, Surah al-Sajdah (32): Ayah 16-17]

Then he said: "Shall I not also tell you of the peak of the matter, its pillar, and its topmost part?" I said: "Yes, O Messenger of Allah." He said: "The peak of the matter is Islam (submission to Allah), the pillar is prayer; and its topmost part is jihad." Then he said: "And shall I not tell you of the controlling of all that ?" I said:" Yes, O Messenger of Allah". So he took hold of his tongue and said: "Restrain this." I said: "O Prophet of Allah, will we be held accountable for what we say?" He said: "May your mother be bereft of you! Is there anything that topples people on their faces (or he said, on their noses) into the Hell-fire other than the jests of their tongues?"

Monday, November 2, 2009

132: Entry before ni patutnya 131

Alhamdulillah, I successfully submitted the last submission for my third year. Kelegaan. Al-Insyirah. Start esok (erk, nape bukan hari ni?) akan dapat fokus and pulun. The heat is on.

Also, I just submitted the University of Melbourne's honours application. Now I leave it to Allah. Yang terbaik, Ya Allah. Yang terbaik...

Need to settle a few things before I can submit RMIT's application. Monash ni, huhu, napa supervisors semua tidak membalas emailku? Ada sorang tu kata dia tak available until today (kene remind him and do another appoinment), ada sorang tu balas awal, then minta transcript. Haha. After I sent it in, terus diam.. huhu, baiklah. Daku faham transcriptku sungguh tidak lawa dan tidak mencapai standard kemasukan ke honours year. Tapi at least I tried. Takpela, diri ini pun kalau boleh honours di RMIT atau Melbourne Uni aje. Dekat sikit. Tak usah pindah-pindah etc. (Macam dpt je.. huhu, abah kata berangan tu doa)

Lama tak call umah. Mama, abah, munah nak balik T_T...

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Politik Malaysia never fails to make us all nauseous eh.
Sunatullah kan.. yang mahukan kebenaran, yang cintakan kedamaian, pasti ramai lagi yang menentangnya, yang membencinya.. Perjuangan itu.. mensucikan.
Doaku.. doa kita.. harus terus.

Kegelapan ini pasti akan hancur, dan alam ini akan disinari fajar lagi..

Sunday, November 1, 2009

130: Humidity

Malam tadi hujan agak lebat (untuk standard Melbourne. kalau standard mesia hujan renyai-renyai kot). Sebelum hujan, kilat berkali-kali. Strange, aku rasa. Jarang sungguh Melbourne bercuaca begini. Hoho. Hari kebelakangan ni agak panas. Dan sangat humid because of the rain. Hari tu selepas a day spent at the library, keluar je, spontaneously kawan cakap "Eh, rasa macam kat Malaysia!". The way you instantly feel the kelembapan when you are outside. Bunyi hujan dan suhu malam tadi benar-benar buat hati merindui tanah airku Malaysia. Poyo tak? Terima kasih.

Dulu tak faham sangat bila belajar dalam Geography, climate di Malaysia ialah 'panas dan lembap sepanjang tahun' .. faham part panas tu, tapi tak faham lembap. Sebab tak pernah rasa 'lembap' pun unless masa hujan. Pastu datang sini, spent a year.. then balik Malaysia end of first year tu, keluar je dari airplane, badan terus melekit. You can really feel the humidity of the air~ Barulah daku faham apa yang dimaksudkan humid tu. Seriously can feel the different. Kalau orang lagi tak biasa, akan rasa sesak nafas sebab udara agak humid. Macam heavy gitu jika dibandingkan dengan udara melbourne yang agak dry.

Oh, I'm gonna miss Melbourne, alright. Tapi dah namanya orang Malaysia, sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga. Macam tak betul je peribahasa. Apa ye peribahasa yang ada 'pulang ke akar'?? something like that. Tak ingat la.

Cetusan minda di pagi hari.

Oh Alhamdulillah masih diberi nyawa hari ini. Yosh2! semangat. Hari ni kene siapkan lab report. One last thing to submit on Monday before I accelerate to study lecture materials and past year papers.

Oh, one last thing. Surreal it is.

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Walau macammana sekali pun, have one thing, pegang pada ia. Menjadi senjata kamu, di saat sangaaaat memerlukan. What's urs?

Mine's do'a...

Doa banyak-banyak. Doa banyak-banyak.

Kita takkan pernah tau whatever that is going to happen in the future. Terbaik adalah kita serahkan pada yang Maha Tahu.. minta agar segala apa pun yang berlaku, kita dapat mengextract ibrahnya.. minta walau apa pun yang berlaku, He never leave us doing anything by our own.. minta agar walau macamamana down kita rasa, He will never let us go.. minta dan minta...minta segalanya dipermudah.. minta dan minta..

.. dan DIA maha memakbulkan do'a.. jika betul anda kata anda beriman....