26: Of Cheng and Isabella

At Ballieu Library, 11:45 am.

"Excuse me!" Tiba-tiba aku terdengar. Terbantut langkah laju ku. Aku pandang arah suara tadi. Oh, seorang perempuan local, rambut coklat. Comel.

"Excuse me, are you going downstairs?" Dia bertanya. Aku terdiam jap. Tak, aku nak cari buku. Bukan nak ke bawah. Nak cari buku Cheng. Cheng. Cheng. Kena cepat, 15 minit lagi tute nak mula. Nak cari buku Cheng. Buku Cheng!

"Um, no. I'm looking for my book.." Aku baru nak teruskan langkah balik. Dia macam kecewa. Baru aku perasan sebelah dia bertimbun buku. 2 piles of books, satu timbun ade dalam berbelas buku.

Hoh, banyak nye. Oo.. kalau org nak gi bawah maybe dia nak minta tolong bawakkan sikit. Tapi aku nak cari buku kat level ni.. so tak dapat nak tolong.. buku Cheng!

Niat dalam hati aku mmg nekad nak teruskan langkah cari buku. Tapi somehow terpacul dari mulutku..

"Oh, you need help with those?" Terus laju aku mendekati dia. Dia tersenyum lega.

"Yes! Thanks so much!. Just help me with this one.." Aku grab satu pile buku. Hoho. Dan kami pun berjalan seiring.. "No worries!" Aku laju cakap kat dia gitu. Wah, bile lagi boleh ber 'no worries' ngan derang ni.. haha.

"Oh, I need to buy another bag!" Dia mengomel sendiri. Di tangan kanan satu beg biru penuh dengan buku, dan di tangan kiri ada beberape keping lagi buku.

"Are you doing research or something?" Aku menjeling sikit ke tajuk buku-buku dia.

Politics, Israel, Policy... Hoh, buat research ape ni, pasal Israel.. Adekah seorang Jewish! Adekah kerana itu dia pilih aku utk tolong dia? Biar aku tgk die tengah buat research pasal ape?? Yela, aku kan pakai tudung..tadi ramai je orang lalu-lalang seblah die, tapi die tak panggil pun..

Laju aku mengomel dalam hati jugak.

"Yup! Gotta work hard on this one.. Oh, thank you so much! That's so nice of you" Kami nak dekat sampai kaunter pinjam buku yang self-service tu.

"Just put those over here.. Oh Thank you so much! It's very fortunate to meet you in here! Jazakillahu khayr!"

Apekah itu yang kudengar? Jazakillah?

"No worries, no worries! It's nothing.... heh, are you a muslim?"

"Oh yes. I'm Isabella!"

"Oh okay! I'm Maimunah!" Aku dah semangat. Wah, muslim rupenye.

"Nice to meet you Maimunah! Okay, Jazakillahu khayr!"

Aku berlalu sambil tersenyum. Oh. Oh!

Pastu terus ke atas balik, nak carik buku Cheng. Tapi tak jumpa jugak. Dah borrowed by others. Tapi aku tak kesah dah pasal tu. Aku terdiam jap teringatkan peristiwa tadi.

A simple incident, yet it gives me 1000s meanings.

It reflects my stand, my decision-making, my prejudice, my negative thoughts, my bad judgement.

It reflects today's world, its people, the conflict, the misunderstanding, the trust, the fear, the emphathy, the same feelings that Muslims all over the world share, the HOPE.

And somehow I feel the GRAND PLAN. By Allah the Almighty.

And how sangat-sangat terasa how important is every decision, guided by HIM.

Oh, hati ku ini masih berkarat-karat, berkotoran degil!

25: Uncertainty

This, ladies and gentlemen, is Heisenberg's Uncertainty Principle..
They tried, but till now still fail to 'violate' or disprove the above principle..

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Someone points out about how when we make decisions, we can never be too sure, kan?

and there's where our tawakal comes in..

Fitrahnya kita, perlukan DIA.

He wants us to need Him. To feel that we need Him.
Because He loves us so much.

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Oh Allah,
I need YOU now..
now..

always..

every single second..

every single decision..

forever...

24: Smelly

Do you know, how some smell makes you remember? how some fragrant makes you feel like you're missing someone, someplace, sometime? How a dusty book's odor reminds you of a distant memory that you never thought you can recall back? How a scent smells so familiar but you can never remember what it was?

Bau toys, bau buku kanak-kanak yang kotak-kotak keras tu, bau dolls, bau lego, bau blocks warna-warni, bau jigsaw puzzle, bau ghulap jamun, bau buku martini (yg lawo itu), bau baju sekolah, bau kapur kasut putih, bau water colour, bau bedsheet, bau katil, bau novel-novel, bau rumput, bau selepas hujan, bau yang wangi-wangi saja (cis, tipu!).. haha ..

Sangat selalu ..

I guess everyone has their own episodes of missing their childhood. Or a part of their sweet memory that can never be rewind, ever.

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Rindu umah di Corn St dan ahli-ahlinya.. heheh ;)

23: Student life

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah..

This week is my second week of second semester of second year. Hah. Menarek. So far, so good. Have had 2 physics laboratory sessions which weren't so stressful compared to last year's lab since every experiment is divided into 2 part, 3 hours on Monday, and 3 hours on Tuesday.. so, no pressure (well, at least not so much la) in completing the lab report. And also I got a fellow MOE scholar as a partner, who is a female! so we understand each other more than anyone else.. heh. Takdela terase tak pandai sangat, or inferior sgt, or tak reti nak terangkan our part to our partner. Boleh cakap malaaay saje.. which is not very good in a way.. tapi yg penting memudahkan dari segi menyiapkan kerja-kerja kami... oh ye, in the lab, my partner and I are the only females.. other than our demostrator. Standard la physics...

This is our first experiment: Rutherford scattering..

Physics experiments semuanya amat 'kering' if you know what i mean.......

Heh, sorrylah if I bore you tentang perkara study.. Saje .. dah lama tak tulis tentang student life ini..

This sem, I take 4 subjects.. there are..

• Electromagnetism & Relativity
• Further Classical & Quantum Mechanics
• Mathematical Methods
• Laboratory

I don't find Electromagnetism interesting, yet. Huhu. Because it is highly and mostly mathematics.. which is an area I'm not very good at! Further Classical Mechanics pun! Full of formula derivations in every class.. every class where I never fail, up to today, to fall asleep.. huhu. Hopefully the next class will be more to my liking..

Oh yeah, we learn the electromagnetism and classical mechanics part first... later in the semester baru lah masuk relativity and quantum mechanics (tukar different lecturer).

Tak best, because we're not learning so much of physics (yet, kot)..

I want to feel alive! not just a writing and calculating robot..

Anyway,
An ayat for us to ponder together :) .. from my favorite surah..

22: Selang-seli

Pada sela-sela nafas ada sesak
Dalam laju-laju bicara ada gagap
Antara langkah-langkah keyakinan ada lopak,
tersadung, terhantuk, tersungkur, tersembam
dan luka...

Namun takkan dilepas, kan?

kan, kan, kan?

Kerana tujuan itu sudah mengalir dalam darah..
Setiap degupan menjadi tazkirah...
Dan setiap kesakitan tanda Dia yang tak pernah lupa...
tak mahu kau menyerah..
never!

kan?

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Muna, I love you! ;)

21: Istiqamah

Assalamualaikum..

Saya sedang mencari mood utk mengupdate kembali..

A thought to ponder..
"Kalau kita buat sesuatu kerana semangat, semangat akan hilang.. jadi buatlah kerana kefahaman.. it will hold us up when the enthusiasm fades away.. and InsyaAllah, with time and continuous reminders, the enthusiasm will come back again.. Al-FAHMU.. that's the most important thing.."

Menjamin keistiqamahan.. insyaAllah..
Hanya kerana redha-Nya

Teguhkan aku..

20: Hasanah & Suhail

Assalamualaikum..
wah wah.. saya sedang teruja sekarang.. first time kami dapat ipar-ipar nih..

To my family, nak gambo2 lagi pleaseee... ini pun curik dari blog piah.. huhu, pathetic nye la hai..

Tahniah Hasanah & Suhail.. semoga rumahtangga ini diberkati..

Hanya dapat mengharap dari jauh ~ ;)

nak gambo mak abah n hanaa gak yg kat cairo..

nak nak nak..