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If you can keep your head when all about you

Are losing theirs and blaming it on you
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise..

-excerpt from 'IF' by Rudyard Kipling

I failed. I know myself now. How it's easy for me to lose my temper. Hoho, kesian pakcik tu, kene marah dengan saya. When I said pakcik, I really mean pakcik. I think he's older than my dad. I feel so guilty now, for losing my temper, not because it's my fault.

Istighfar banyak-banyak.

Rationale.