217: Counting days

What I am feeling right now, sangat lain dengan my expectation sejak dulu kala. I'm getting married in just few days time, insyaAllah... but apa yang dirasakan eh? Seriously I am not sure. People've been asking me.. "Mesti berdebar-debarkan?" and I usually answer with "Not yet".

Maybe it's because of the working load right now. The semester is ending, hence there are mountains of submissions need to be finalised. I'm stressed out. Banyak fokus on finishing these than doing any wedding preparation. Infinite thanks and Jazakunnallahu khayran kathira to my parents especially..and my super-nenek ... and my sisters (honorary mention: Piah yang rajin) .. and my mum's usrahmates... and my sisters' friends.. and my friends of course... yang telah membantu mana yang patut when I completely oblivious about any of those...

Sangat banyak barang-barang di rumah... and saya tak terlibat setakat ni... rasa macam wedding orang lain instead of mine.

Risau juga, I'm venturing into something so foreign without proper preparation.. tapi dicelah-celah kesibukan alhamdulillah sempat juga membaca beberapa buku (walaupun ada melompat-lompat.. insyaAllah the gist tu bolehlah dpt huhu).. berbual dengan beberapa individu untuk nasihat-nasihat yang sangat berguna dan menenangkan hati...and do'a yang sentiasa... walaupun tak sempat properly duduk berteleku and tafakur... every second kan Allah tu menjaga kita? setiap saat pun kita didengari... walau macammana pun keadaan kita... but of course.. duduk berkhalwat dgn Allah pada dinihari tanpa gangguan2 lain adalah yang terbaik...but we have to make the best out of what we have...

Ya Allah, aku takut... tapi tau things will be okay.. InsyaAllah..

Apa-apa ketetapan Allah, itu yang terbaik patut berlaku... tak kira ianya baik atau buruk pada pandangan dan pertimbangan manusia...

Apa-apa yang berlaku, itulah yang terbaik ...

Iman is faith...

Hope and fear. Hope and fear. Hope and fear.

2 wings.

Balance.

"Ud'uni astajib lakum..."

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now, back to work, Muna ...